After a years of CPTSD, I was afraid of everyone, especially in work situations. This lead to poverty and I was just frozen from taking action. I already had social anxiety prior to the adult CPTSD.

While I had made some improvements, I still had so much fear and anxiety around work. So much so that I lost every job I got from nervous behavior. Literally, one day after taking this, I began to apply for jobs fervently. I sent in videos to boost my chances. Me, creating videos of myself! I was confident in the videos. I had many excellent interviews and some bad ones. I did not fret at all over the bad ones which shocked me. I finally got a great job and I am comfortable with everyone.

Also, I started a dream project and now have many meetings with high level mentors. I went public with my project on social media. I could never have done this without intense anxiety and complete self-berating afterwards, even pre PTSD.

I am a new person. If you have social anxiety like I did, I highly recommend it. Someone once described CBT therapy for social anxiety as torturing someone vs aniracetam which simply rids you of it. It’s true – plus CBT hardly works.

I don’t care about the long-term because I have had more than half of my life lost from social anxiety.

Hi! Have you researched “Complicated Grief”? I have been through a period of grief with the loss of my sister, followed by my Dad, and then my mother all within a short time. I was under a deep cloud of grief that just didn’t go away. Someone told me about “Complicated Grief” and when I read about it I realized that I was stuck in grief that wasn’t going away. Maybe understanding what you are dealing with and talking to a therapist might help you work through it and come out on the other side. I know it feels like living under a dark cloud and nothing in life seems interesting. I hope you are able to find hope.